Today…is a bit of a rough day for me. There’s so much going on in my head that it’s hard to wrap my head around any of it. So I thought maybe putting it here would help me. Well, here it goes.
Today…I am bored at work. I don’t really like the job that I have right now. I’m not really like where I am placed and I feel like I’m not prepared for the things that I face every day. I don’t fit in and I feel very out of place every day.
Today…I am really upset. Yesterday I lost something that was very special to me that was given to me as a gift. I even cried at work, that’s how upset I was. I looked everywhere but I knew it was no use. I feel so lost and naked now.
Today…I am anxious. This week alone, I have a follow-up job interview and 2 other job interviews and I am anxious and terrified. Everything is happening so quickly that I feel like I’m not making any of the right decisions and I am second guessing everything. I am overwhelmed with the amount of interviews I have. I’m really trying so hard to find a job and I didn’t realize that I would be taking on so many interviews at once. I’m so tired already, and Im honestly just getting started.
Today…I feel alone. And lonely. I only have a very few select people in my life that make me feel happy and whole. I’m a people person, and I used to have SO many friends. Now my friend circle just keeps getting smaller and smaller and I don’t know how I feel about it. There are only two or three people that know how to make me feel happy and I don’t think that’s enough for me.
Today…I am tired. I’m so tired that I barely can read my book. Which never happens to me. Ever. I adore reading and I am actually really into this book (It Should Have Been You by Lynn Slaughter) but I’m so tired that I just don’t want to read.
Well. I think I got it all. Sometimes I feel a little bit better even just to type this out because I’m able to get my feelings out somehow. Hopefully things will start to look up for me…